Take a half hour to watch this today… Trust me, it’s worth your time!
It was this part that especially gripped me:
Don’t miss HIM.
Missions was never intended to be your life.
Christ is intended to be your life.
Missions is the overflow of a life in love with Christ.
This is the life that counts: the life in love with Christ.
Does your heart belong to Jesus?
Dont’ try to manufacture a heart for missions and miss a heart for Christ.
For years I’ve listened to messages like this with a very closed, prideful mindset. These are things I’ve often told myself: You’re beyond this, Hannah…you’ve been following Jesus for years, you’re already active in missions. There’s no reason for you to question whether or not you are in love with the Lord, it’s so obvious by what you do.
Yet I believe God led me to stumble upon this video yesterday to jolt my heart and expose areas needing change in my life. I get so fixed in my ways that it’s hard to accept correction, especially when I know it’ll likely flip flop my direction. But this is sanctification. Being purged of sin and being transformed into Christ’s likeness.
Today I am faced with the reality that over the last few months I have not lived a life that counts.
Others see me juggling a schedule filled with numerous church or religious activities and acts of service, but what I see is a bunch of hypocrisy because these things are not overflowing of a life abandoned to loving Christ.
I love myself and exalt the task over the Purpose.
My sights are set on pleasing people to increase my reputation, not lift high the name of Jesus.
I selfishly desire to be better, do good and change the world….but we all know that Jesus, only Jesus, is capable of that.
And I get consumed with fleshly passion….far more than I devote myself to Christ.
But I refuse to live this way for a moment longer.
I recognize my sin and have confessed it to the Lord. I see my Savior and, to be perfectly honest I DON’T WANT TO MISS HIM. I NEED Jesus, more than ever and to truly KNOW Him…seeking and growing and listening to Him every. single. day.
Then my heart will genuinely overflow with love, compassion, service…
I want to look back on this life after everything has passed- all the deeds disappeared and followers vanished- and be satisfied by the reward of knowing Christ intimately, having loved Him with my whole heart and giving every breath I breathe to that loving and letting His love pour forth through me.